I bit satan’s bait and was hooked on self-deception. I pretended that everything was alright, but I had a vacuum inside from broken expectations. I sought to fill that vacuum with my own efforts. My life marinated in pride-juices, therefore my motives were pride-driven.
Emotional fillers are heart idols. They are anything or anyone that we put before the Lord to fulfill our needs. Ezekiel 14 is written to Israel. We can make personal applications.
Verse 4 says, “…who sets up his idols in his heart, and puts before him what causes him to stumble into iniquity, and then comes to the prophet, I the Lord will answer him who comes, according to the multitude of his idols. Verse 6 says, “…Repent, turn away from your idols…”
Zechariah 10:2 says that the idols speak delusions and they comfort in vain. It is impossible for our emotional filler-idols to satisfy needs. If you would like to read more about heart idols, I encourage you to read my ebook, “Heart-Idols Are Idle-Worship” on Amazon.
The crux of my emptiness was that I did not have a fulfilling relationship with the Lord. He was not my All In All at that time in my life.