What Does Your Soul Long For?

I am in the process of memorizing verses in Psalm 119. Verse 20 says, “My soul breaks with longing for Your judgments at all times.” There is something about memorizing that drives truth deeper into our heart.

As I am repeatedly speaking this verse out loud, it brings conviction every time. I cannot truthfully say, ‘at all times’ and that is what challenges me. How do I live out this verse in my life?

At the same time frame in which I am memorizing this verse, I came to a part in my homework book that meshed with this verse. I’m paraphrasing so I don’t violate copyrights. 

What fruit do others see as evidence of your heart’s devotion to the Lord? Outward fruit is the manifestation of the inward thoughts. The source of our roots determine what type of fruit we bear.

In my homework book it used the words: captivate, captured, and captivated. Does that describe my heart in my relationship with the Lord? Is Song of Solomon 5:1 Amplified a reality for me?

I read it as though the Lord is speaking of me. It says, “..Drink, yes, drink abundantly of love, O precious one (for now I know you are Mine, irrevocably Mine! With His confident words still thrilling her heart…”

I am typing out my thoughts as I am thinking this through. In the first 22 verses of Psalm 119, here are the ways that identify God’s word: law, testimonies, precepts, statutes, commandments, word, and judgments. 

John 1:14 says, “And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth.”

As I mull this over, here is my conclusion. At all times our heart should break with longing for the Lord. He is His word no matter what word is used. He is the One who has captured our heart through His death on the cross. Our heart becomes His dwelling place when we accept Him as our Savior and Lord.

We don’t obey a set of rules like a robot. In our love relationship with Him, our heart longs to do as He has written, because He is the Giver. His word is our greatest gift to lead us into righteousness. That is our path of progressive sanctification. It is the process through which our thoughts, purpose, and actions are continually being conformed to His will and His ways.

Parenthesis are mine, and depict the new way my heart can now read this Psalm of 176 verses! Psalm 119:16 says, “I will delight myself in (You) Your statutes; I will not forget (You) Your word.” Verse 92 is a truth I lived in through this last brain injury. It says, “Unless Your law had been my delight, I would then have perished in my affliction.”

I can experientially put in ‘You’ for ‘Your law’ because I couldn’t read my Bible. After three weeks my soul was breaking with longing for His word. I had to wait for someone to read it to me. I also had a CD of verses that a friend recorded for me of ones that I requested. It was my relationship with the Lord that kept me from perishing in that affliction. 

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